new blog
my new blog is here:
www.thisiswhinecountry.tumblr.com
please go follow it! I think I will primarily be using that one from now on.
I do want to say Ive been more active on twitter and instagram. anyone is welcome to message me for my handles there. i’m also fine with facebook for just about all of my followers, too. just in case no one wants to lose touch, I’ve definitely lost touch with people over the years through tumblr and kept in touch with many people as well! but, I do wish I didn’t lose touch with the people that I did. so yeah. I won’t bite.
I put on makeup today. I didn’t do a great job but I tried. I thought about making a new blog but I’m not sure. I wouldn’t take this one down, I’d possibly restrict it in some way but leave it up-or leave it up fully. I’m just not sure though. It would be nice to use an outlet I’m really going to use but idk.
I hate always being left out.
I wish I could be included in spaces I probably belong in the most.
I’ve kind of neglected this blog. I was going to post a kind of positive update for me but it didn’t end up feeling positive and it’s been overshadowed by a bunch of bad shit and I’m really truly so so tired of constantly going through some shit
And like I’ve just had enough in general. My mood is tanking. I can’t do fucking anything in this house.
The laundry bullshit continues and I can’t keep taking this anymore
is this a sign i shouldnt type this up and then ask my therapist if i can email him this letter instead of continuing to not be able to talk about things………….lol
i just typed 6 pages. dont know when the last time i saved was……..and not microsoft word is acting up and not responding
lord help me
I think I have a lot of patience- I KNOW I have a lot of patience bc I go through a lot of bad shit on a daily basis and I still have patience left even when I’ve had more than enough to possibly handle- but when I’m getting mad? I feel like that’s fair. I doubt anyone else would go through what I go through and not be mad a lot sooner. Currently I am pissed the fuck off and that’s just the way it’s going to be I suppose.
I’d like to say hopefully today will suck less but it most likely will not
I can’t wait to live alone ….. By myself ….. In my own house …. Alone
(via sleepyfemme)
I was going to try to like… chill out tonight but I fucking can’t
I’m so fucking sick of this ridiculous absurd and horrible bullshit
They wouldn’t do this to anyone else.
For 6 days in a row I had to deal with extreme fume issues in my house. Then I got a small break for 1 day. Then the next day I have to deal with cigarette smoke (today). I don’t have any anti histamines I can take to help with my reactions to these things because I react so badly to every single OTC and Rx anti histamine I’ve tried.
I literally wish to be dead